harmonicaman

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Posted: June 20 2009, 11:31 pm |
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I respect people's observance of father's day, but in my case, please respect my wishes to be counted out. Let me explain: If churches would practice the doctrine they teach on Sunday, the pews would be full. Churches are full of competition and dirty politics. Where in the Bible does it say that to be a Christian, I must live exactly as others do? The Bible does say that it was written by men inspired by God. That I would pay to see. A man inspired by God. Inspired by God and not greed, not popularity, not me me me, not competition, not pride, not anything but God. People could find fault with Elvis Presley, but 2 quotes of his stand out, “Jesus Christ is the only King.” “There is no God but God.” I haven’t been to church in several months. In time I’m sure I’ll find one again. There is one big thing that has really hurt me while going to church. No church we’ve ever stepped foot in will ever let us forget that we lost a child and our ensuing infertility. I say it’s none of their business. My mama told me if you scratch a wound, you’ll make it bleed. I hate reliving losing my son over and over again. Tomorrow is father’s day. I won’t be in attendance because I’m made to stand up in front of people like I am a real father. If I return to churchgoing, I will in turn quit altogether if this persists. We have been through 3 different churches in the last 7 years. Every one of them has made me feel like an outcast, like there is something wrong with me because we haven’t had children. I know this could happen in any organization, but I do believe people do this to me because they know it gets to me. It’s like being around a bully at school who picks on the weak. If you show some your weakness, they will exploit it, whether it be in AA, the Elk’s Club, The Rotary club, the town council, or whatever group you make yourself a part of. I don’t go to church to knock other people down and point out their weaknesses. I try my best not to do that outside the church, either. Neither do I condemn you. Just don’t bring up losing a child, infertility, or parade me in front of the congregation like I’m some poster child.
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